Originally written November 20, 2019
Just begin, they say. And so I must and I am.
As I sit in my office on a Friday night with tissues in my nose, throat scratchy, and my body feeling utterly drained and exhausted—I am so ready to close my eyes and wake up to another day. But despite my best interests, my mind won’t stop racing.
I was just brushing my teeth, ready for bed, and instead of taking the easy way out to put an end to the madness of this day. I can’t. Instead, I walk back in here. Back in the office where I spend most of my waking hours to begin.
I dreamt of this life. Working in an industry I love ( food media), working remote (from the comfort from my home, in a coffee shop– and from the beach), in a cute little old house, in a safe neighborhood that I love so much, and all the other amazing things I have in my life.
Sometimes when the morning light is shining into the kitchen and I smell coffee brewing, I am reminded of all these things and I can’t help but feel joy, peace, and gratitude for this life God has given me.
However, I realize— as time goes by— I am slowly killing myself (sorry for the sudden spike of drama) and this dream life I currently live because I simply do not set boundaries. I am not committing myself to find balance. By nature and by habit and by genetics (thanks Mom!), I am a workaholic. I put work over most things in life. And when working remoting, it is even more challenging to draw a line when it’s time to shut down. There is no end and no beginning. One minute I am greeting my boyfriend at the door, the next I am dicing potatoes and the next, I am answering an email because it’s one less tomorrow.
I realize— I am not alone. Most people feel this way. But, I am here because I believe we don’t have to feel this way. Life shouldn’t be this way. And my ultimate goal of picking back up the pen (or in this case, keyboard) is to not only get my life in balance (once and for all) and the way I vision it to be— but to also inspire others to do the same because let’s face it— we are the only hurdle standing in the way of pursuing the life we imagine and ultimately deserve.
This site—The Modern Career Woman— had originally been a dream of mine to feature inspirational women chasing and reaching big dreams. It is 100% set to be an incredibly uplifting and positive digital destination. And ya know what—it will mostly be that way because I am, by nature, a very positive, happy-go-lucky kind of person. I like to live in the light and like to bring it into any room I walk in.
However, this site will also predominantly feature this journey as a modern career woman —not only the triumphs, but the hardships and how I am determined to proactively take charge — of my own life – my health, my wellness, my relationships, my home, my dreams, and the pursuit to chart my own course, wherever that may lead me.
And my biggest hope is that my journey can, too, inspire you on your own.